God please fast forward the time!

Currently im listening to raya songs. omg. i miss kuching so much. raya la cepat. pleaseeee..ive started packing a bit cos im really in the mood for raya.

I wanna go back so bad. im tired of bebuka alone almost everyday. i wanna be with my fam. how i wish i can go back now but the stupid quiz is next week, on friday! arghhhh.. i didnt get barred anyway. alhamdulillah.

Dear God, can u make time go faster, please?

Another reason

I just found another reason to lose weight. i want to be able to sit on mmu's old table-chair and at the same time using the table.

Exhaustion exhaustion exhaustion!

Right now i'm blogging from the lab, waiting for my next class to start. I'm totally exhausted. I have tonnes of things waiting to be done. I'm sure my panda eyes are getting worse. Last nite i was doing my assignment till 2.30 am and didnt sleep until after performing subuh prayer. I slept around 7am. Woke up at 9.30 am just now cos i cant miss my Corporate Accounting class anymore. These are my to do lists:

• Taxation 2 assignment- need to be completed before friday. currently half are done.
• Corporate Accounting assignment - before friday as well. still waiting for the others to send their part so that we can do the conclusion.
• Accounting Information system assignment - the group leader wants the assignment to be completed by this week. also still waiting for the others to submit their part.
• Study for Corporate Finance quiz - should be done by this weekend (but im going to kl. how aa?)
• Start doing revision for final - especially for tax and CA
  
• Packing for holiday - this is the best part. i just cant wait. 2 more weeks to go. please make times go faster please please please.

Aite need to go now. Class in 3 minutes time. Till then, see u again soon.

10 reasons i wanna lose weight

1. People call me names. Gemuk, hyppo, gajah and so on. I wanna prove to them that i can lose those extra weights and they can stop calling me those names ok. I dont mind really but as it keeps on recurring it does hurt me deep down. I have feelings in case u guys wanna know.
2. Most probably i will get married in 3-4 yrs time. I just dont want my wedding pics look hideous. So better start now hehe.
3. I dont want to end up with tonnes of disease due to my weight. I wanna be healthy.
4. Of course i wanna wear pretty clothes and look nice at the same time. I look yuck wearing any clothes now.
5. I wanna sit comfortably in the plane. No need for stewardess to langgar my hand if i sit at the aisle seat. Lol.
6. I feel exhausted and sick of being fat. It's tiring to move around. It makes me lazy.
7. I wanna look normal and not like monsters that scare shits outta ppl.
8. When performing solat jemaah, i have enuf space for tahiyat aher. No need for me to hempap person next to me or there is no such thing as cramped leg.
9. So that i dont look like a 0 standing next to a 1. if tak paham g mampos haha.
10. SO THAT I CAN WEAR A BIKINI. hahahahaha. jk! I cant think of any reason anymore but all i know is that i wanna be thin so bad!.

Choc and Peanut Butter Cake

Like i said this is a non bake cake. It is very easy to prepare. I came across with this recipe while i was surfing for frosting recipe. I tried this cos basically i have all the ingredients at home and was bored haha. This is the original recipe :

Ingredients:

• 2 cups sugar
• 1/2 cup margarine
• 1/4 cup evaporated milk plus 1/4 cup water
• 1/2 cup instant or quick cooking oats
• 1/2 cocoa powder (sifted)
  
• 1/2 cup peanut butter
• 1 teaspoon vanilla

Procedure:

1. Mix all ingredients in a medium saucepan.
2. Boil for one minute over 350 degrees F.
3. Drop spoon fulls of mixture on lined cookie sheets.
4. Refrigerate for about 2 hours.
5. Serve with milk.

For me, i changed a bit of the ingredients. i used only one and a quarter cups of sugar but it is still sweet for my liking. i used 1/4 cup of evaporated milk as well instead of water. i used 1 cup of cocoa powder instead of half. 3/4 cups of oats just to make it harder a bit. If u dont like peanut butter u can reduce the amount or changed it to choc spread instead.

Till then, enjoy ur cake!

Happiness =)

This weekend i spent time with sayang. He surprised me again! He drove all the way to malacca and he's having a fever. i am totally touched. He reached malacca around 10 pm on friday and tapao me some of his mom's homemade kueh. Ahhhh greatness.

So we did some shopping and bought a brand new wallet, a dress for my sis, a new eyeliner and some groceries. Last week i bought a new cardigan, a small so-called yellow carpet and a towel. hehe. For both days we broke fast at aladdin and sahur at tomyam.

He came with a good news. He finally got a job at celcom and will be starting on the 15th. Alhamdulillah. I am relieved. I am very happy for him and for myself as well. I got a new source of income hahahaha. Kejam tau mak ni. He promised me an ang pao for this coming raya. Jangan kasi 5 rgt jer plak sudey.

He left at 9pm today after bebuka and after some groceries shopping again. Lalalala. I wish we couldve spent more times haihhh.

Another good news for me. Brand new season of gossip girl and antm have started. Yeay! Ive been waiting for so long. Now i have something to look forward to. Aww i'm in heaven is it?

The first episode of gossip girl really makes me wanna orgasm cos serena and dan are back together muahahaha. Yeah baby that's what i wanna see. Thank goodness. Some spoiler for second episode haha:

Blair (Leighton Meester) is over the moon that she is dating royalty and has every intention of becoming a royal herself, but a scheming Chuck (Ed Westwick) has other plans for Blair and hew new love, Marcus (guest star Patrick Heusinger). Serena (Blake Lively) and Dan (Penn Badgley) agree to keep their recent hook-ups a secret from their friends and family until they figure out what all this means for their relationship. Meanwhile, Nate (Chace Crawford) learns the downside to having an affair with a hot older woman, Catherine (guest star Madchen Amick), who also happens to be married.

As for antm, this cycle really made a headline. There's a transsexual competing in this cycle. Her name is Isis. I pity her so much cos almost every girls bitches about him. Kurang ajar k. I would say so far my fav are marjorie (her style resembles agyness), sheena (she looks like kimora and her body is smoking hot!), and ellina (her eyes are stunning in the pics but she's a lesbo lol). Here's the vid :



Just now i tried a new recipe which is a non bake cake. It is basically a choc and peanut butter cake. I'm still waiting for it to set in the fridge but mcm menjadi jer hehehehe. I will post the recipe after this. I also cooked some bubur jagong with macaroni, sagu and cendol. Yea baby, yummy yum yum.

Here some pics of me for this week. Im vain i know hahaha.

Me without the makeup

Me trying on my new eyeshadow and eyeliner

In conjunction with antm cycle 11 hahaha

Till then, see u again soon.

Ramadhan

Another ramadhan.. I just cant believe how fast time flies. But this is the time ive been waiting for. I just love the feeling of ramadhan. It's very peaceful. It makes me look back to myself and makes me see what wrongs ive done. It is a holy month which makes u just wanna clean urself and repent for what u've done. The next best thing is that it is an indicator of raya is coming! haha.

This ramadhan i aim to fast for the whole month (period is an exception la kan). ive started to solat cos its been almost a yr since the last time i pray. Yea it's true i'm not a very good muslim but i'm trying to change. I wanna change my lifestyle. I want to live a more organized life. It's depressing to live like how i live currently. I can only sleep at 6am and then woke up in the evening. I feel like my life is a mess. I didnt attend most of my classes. I am totally lost.

I know i will get barred by the lecturer. Usually i will give a completely ridiculous excuse but this time i feel that ive lost my drama queen talent. haha. but seriously i cant think of any excuses. I guess i'm tired of lying. I dont have the courage to face the lecturer. Not even to send an email. urghhh. it's a total mess u see. this is what u get for not organising ur life well.

The 1st day i broke fast with sayang's family. it is sad for not having to break fast with ur own family. i in fact cried on the night before puasa. it's true that my mum insisted that i go back to kuching but it's tiring for me to travel far. plus it's puasa. so i decided not to go back. my mum called hundred thousand times (exaggerate la pulak kan.haha) to coax me to go back to kch. haha. ok it's evil i know. haha.

Talking about how fast time flies, in roughly 1 week time, farah will be flying to london for her degree. Honestly, it is heartbreaking for me. I cant call her anytime anymore. The only medium for communicating is messenger. wtf? haha. eh tak baik mencarut2 bulan baik ni tau.

Yesterday i weighed myself again. I've lost another 2 kg since the last time i weighed myself, meaning i've lost 9 kg in total. one more kg to my 1st goal. alhamdulillah.

Till then, see u again soon.