i am so horny. please fuck me.

me n amy have this one new hobby: which is to kacau org in the chat room n stickam. my god. plek2 k manusia2 yg kami jumpai.

what i can say is that the net is full of horny men. gay ke tak gay ke pon sumer desperate giler. guys, korang dah takde cara lain ke nak puaskan nafsu. mcm mana la korang bley turn on kan dgn org yg korang chat tu padahal tak tau pon muka mcm mana. sangat gross ok.

kalo mcm ni tak rasa jijik ke?

at times rasa bersalah la buat mcm tuh but then suka jer nak carik bahan gelak kan. siap kasi number fon la, address rumah la. gambar tak pyh cakap la. yg tunjuk kote pon lagi banyak. sangat tak suka tau. u guys hengat kami ini tersangat la horny sampai nk tgk kote yg dah la kecik, buruk pulak keadaan rupa paras nya itu? totally not. turned off terus tau tak.

tp mmg kelakar la berchat dgn org yg horny2 itu. kesian korang tak pasal2 kene gelak. lupa plak kan nak copy paste perbualan yg memualkan tersebut. kalau ade lagi nnt i post kan.

so guys, jangan la buat perkara2 mcm tu tau. so not cool. kang ade plak number fon korang kene jual ngan kiterang ni.

till then, see u again soon.


p.s. benci nyer real life chuck hookup dgn real life vanessa. chuck, kenapa kah kamu tidak suka dgn real life blair? sedeh tau. my real life nate plak dgn jenny. hahhhhhh.

hotness rank.

last week celebrated dol's bday. was a small surprise party for him. it was fun lah just to hang out with frens and gelak2 sampai tak hengat dunia.

the birthday boy

our big happy family.

last weekend mmg heaven giler. at last dapat gak jumpe ngan my darling jaye after like almost 3 yrs. we did a lot of catch up sampai jaye dah tertido2. huahauhaua. jaye u kene dtg lagi tau. i miss u already. =(

then there were juan and aiman. u guys totally cheered me up. i had a lot of fun having u guys around. farah jer yang takder tau. if not mmg perfect combination gitu.

pastuh kan. someone proposed to me. an irish guy tau. korang jangan maen2. tak sangka mak ni laku jugak. ajak kawen n dok kat ireland lagi. haha. pengsan aku. kepada org perasan tu kan, jangan jeles tau. i am still a hot stuff walaupon gemuk. ade ko hot mcm aku? haha. aku tau aku keji, jangan tegur.

kasut dah sama so sama la level of hotness kami ini kan? haha

tapi kan, sayang i rindu u (walaupon i sangat suka mat salleh)

till then, see u again soon.

mental illness yang dibuat buat.

i cant wait. juan n eman are coming to malacca. jaye pon sama. jaye! u better betul2 datang tau this time. i miss u so much. we have so much to catch up.

farah, kawu bila gik mok dtg? haha. sik sempat ko dtg melawat aku yg lonely ini di melaka cos by the time kawu balit aku dah pindah to cyber. tp yg penting harus aku pegi ngagak kawu in 2010.

i cant believe how people have changed these days. good gone bad, bad gone good. it surprises me. but thank god for me, ive learned my lessons and i am a better person now. haha. harusla aku memuji diri sendiri kan.

but i have this one bad habit that im trying to get rid of. i just cant stop bitching about ppl. i wonder why do i care so much about what's happening around me. why cant i just totally ignore all of that. most of the times bcos i tak leh control my mouth. urghhh. i do feel terrible after that tapi entahla i just cant stop.

you know what. aku benci org perasan. haha. suka nak merendah2 kan aku yer? adekah kau itu sgt insecure sbb aku sememangnya dilahirkan sangat cantik walaupon aku gemuk and still ade lelaki yg nak kat aku walaupon rupa parasku ini mempunyai lelemak di sana sini? (padehal sayang je nak kat i kan sayang?haha) hmmm. entahla badul.

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im bitching again. haha. tp itu luahan rasa sahaja. lupakan.

anyway, happy 21st bday to aizat@dol! may Allah bless u with happiness always.

till then, see u again soon.

abusive partner is a total no no.

last nite i watched PENSIL. cerita melayu yer kengkawan. i think kuar kat astro box office jer kot. not sure whether ade kat cinema ke tak. i watched it on youtube. g la search yer.



this movie mmg worth watching. best sangat2. weiii cerita ni sedehh gilerr. i menangis mmg tak hengat dunia. kalah cerita hindustan. pegi la menonton ye kak enon2 sekalian alam semesta.

ok topic lain plak yer. today i heard a really bad news. this one girl, kene pukul dgn balak die. it was so bad that perut die some sort of bengkak sebab kenak sepak/terajang or whatsoever. anddd. kaki and belakang die berbirat sbb kene pukul pakai belt.

so why do i care? cos she's a good fren of mine. one person that i care a lot. i love her like my little sister. walaupon die adelah tua daripada saya tetapi die sangat kecik jadi saya rasa saya ini adalah kakak besar dan die adik kecik.

mcm ini lah saya dan die tapi die pendek sikit

this thing boleh dielakkan if u dump that guy betol tak? so if anyone yg terkene benda2 mcm ni pls think deeply. that guy is not the one for u. there is someone better. this thing happened to me. i was abused like hell but i took the right step which was to move on and now i am truly happy with someone better.

fight for your right and to guys out there if u care deeply for a lady u wont do such thing. say no to abuse everyone!

till then, see u again soon

of ciggy and girls.

smoking. suddently i remember my dad once said "smoking is mmu female students' identity is it?" i just laughed.

so, is it wrong for girls to smoke?

for me it's not a big problem since i smoke too. it doesnt mean that all those girls are sluts. it's just not a nice view to see. it's a very bad image to the girls (including me, i know).

but it's a big problem IF u smoke cos u try to be cool, want to be in the clique. and IF u try to show off that u're smoking. hello! it's not cool ok. u look bad. i hate it if girls smoke in front of the elders. i only smoke if there is no elders around or the elders i know that doesnt mind.

sadly, i admit that when i started smoking 7 years ago it was because i want to look cool but as i grow up i realize it's not for the show anymore. i am addicted.i feel quite regretful to start smoking in the first place.

how i wish i could stop but i guess i am not ready yet. it's my only way out of my misery. ceyh. but it has affected me now. i ran out of breath easily, i always have sore throat and etc.

so girls or even guys, please dont ever try to smoke. it's not good for ur health and ur image too. it's totally not cool ok.trust me.

till then, see u again soon.

another one

lupak. just now while i was walking, some kids perli me cos i exercise. i gave them middlefinger.

wtf. at least i exercise. i have some efforts to lose weight. salah ke if orang gemuk exercise? dah aku gemuk ko jugak kutuk kan. i hate those stupid people. fuck you and go to hell. harap2 ko dapat bini gemuk. i hate u.

till then, fuck u motherfuckers.

randomness.

last nite amy mentioned: "surprisingly i am still in love with kurt the way i did 2 yrs ago".

yes. that's how i feel towards sayang. it's still clear in my mind how we ended up being together. we just hang out and kept on talking talking and talking. we watched movies together on his pc. it's amazing, you know, reminiscing to good old memories. makes me miss him more.sigh.

if u guys ask me do i miss my high school years. i would say no. to me that was the downturn of my life.too many things happened.too many people were hurt by me.i guess i was the stupidest person ever existed.luckily those days are gone.meet the new me.

i can be very nice but i can be very mean. u choose what u want to get from me. tips: find the right time to talk to me. if i just woke up after long hours of sleeps, that is the worst time to talk to me. sometimes i would ignore u.

that reminds me of an iban girl whom i met few days ago. at first i was very excited meeting her. sama kampong tek nak. it was until she mentioned this: kamek dah tak berapa pandai cakap bahasa sarawak koh. WTF? hello. i hate u. totally. after that i just ignored her.haha.

till then, see u again soon

p.s. i gained back some of the weight i lost before. i hate going back to kuching (well a metaphore only k)

deep within.

blue.
not socializing enough.
dont want to.
missing ur presence.
tired.
sick of gossips, not gossip girl.
denise austin, i need u.
seduction, shooh.
feeling blaire.
tuesday and thursday, must.
nate in michael way.
junior i adore, blew my sadness.
less of m i need most.
clc here i come. i promise.

till then, see u again soon.

a sinner, yes i am.

i have a confession. i have done a very huge mistake. i admitted to doing it and im guilty as charged.

i never intended to start the whole things but i cant resist the seduction. i thought i have enough strength to defeat the goddamn demon but turned out that i am not. oh lord. what have i done? i am full of regrets wishing that things are gonna be the way they were.

this time around i promise to myself i wont do such things ever again. i must be stronger!

till then, see u again soon.

p.s. 18 more subjects and i will complete my degree.cant wait.

to go or not to go?

i'm moving to cyberjaya this coming june. it's frantically sad for me to leave the old malacca. seriously. i dont know why but i kinda feel it already. to leave this house that i called home these few years. oh god. it makes me wanna cry just to think about moving.

i have few doubts that make me go back to thinking, should i go or should i not? let's say if i go. i dont have anyone that i know in class. i have to make new friends. next is i have to stay in the hostel! i have one more to year to go once i move, so it's not really a good idea to find a new house to rent. in hostel i cant smoke! some ppl might say thats good but currently it's not for me. it's the only thing left for me to entertain my emotional wrecks.sigh.

then, i have to sell off all my furnitures here in malacca. it's hard to get rid of everything. it's not everyday ppl want to buy furnitures. 2nd hand furthermore. finding a new person to rent my room is another story. it's all very tiring. in cyberjaya sayang cant lepak in my room, so no more cuddle up in the room. haha. but seriously we're not comfortable of PDA especially for him la kan. tetttt.

but there are some good points if i go. my parents and my nenek think it's good thing. they insist me to go. it will be easier for me to gerak from klia. instead of riding the stop-at-every-destination bus to seremban, then a different bus to malacca, i will only have to spend RM6.20 on transportation. (tol ka juan?). i will be nearer to sayang. so he doesnt have to drive all the way to malacca to see me anymore. so can dating everytime he cuti la kan. haha. next is i have juan to be with me in cyber. and amy too. hmmm.

right now im only 60% sure of moving. i just feel very comfortable of living in malacca. when i move, it will take time for me to adapt to the whole new environment. will it be this comfortable? i just have no idea.

till then, see u again soon.

Eish eish eish cobaan..

Today so much dugaan happened to me. After chibi woke me up, i felt so determined to do my assignment. I went straight to the laptop and start reading the rest of the assignment as i am suppose to conclude it. It took me nearly 2 hours to figure out that actually some of the work done by others are totally wrong so i cant conclude the assignment! I shouldve check the thing yesterday but i waited and this is what i get!

The thing is they blindly followed the instruction given without noticing that there are several errors in it. If u have read and understand what is required, you should know how to do it correctly and just use the instruction as a guideline only, not follow it blindly get it? Yet u said u want a perfect job. Wtf? Is that what u call perfect? U need to think out of the box!

After getting stuck in doing the assignment, i decided to check the mmls and see which chapters are coming out for the quiz tomorrow (the main reason i stayed for another one week). The thing is only then i realized that this is not week 12. It is week 13. Meaning that the quiz was held last week! I got zero after wasting my time waiting for the quiz. Another wtf! I am so fucking mad at myself. Luckily the lecturer is willing to let me do the quiz tomorrow but i am still mad cos i am suppose to be back in kch last week. Fuck fuck fuck.

Then i decided to go out for berbuka. Guess what? I left my key inside my room. I couldnt find the spare key and no one was at home. I was stuck inside the house as all the grill are locked. Nice one. What i did was kick the room door open causing it to be broken near the knob. I still cant believe that i managed to open the door after only a few kicks. Amazing! Another wtf moment for me today is when chibi called saying that she has the spare key for my room that i gave her but i forgot about it! WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!

Today teaches some lessons for me. Dont be such a stupid bitch. Lain kali coba ingat betol2 mena sik? Tok tek sikkkk. Leka gago kedirik ajak. Bongok eh.

Till then, see u again soon.

She's leaving on a jetplane

She just left. Few hours ago. Hopefully everything will be alright for her. She can now learn to be independent! hahahaha. ayat sapa ka itu? cuba teka.

Today for berbuka we ate at mcd. Me, chibi and amy and the rest of the guys except for faiz and otak2. Everything was on chibi. Thanks babe. Murah rejeki aku bulan puasa ni tau. Banyak jer org belanja. Alhamdulillah.

I dont have any plan to send her off at the airport. Everything was planned at the very last minute. Luckily otak2's car was available. At first i asked vic to accompany me but since his friend is coming over here and since dol said that it's ok for him to accompany me, i went to the airport with him and chibi (he drove of course). We left at 8.15pm right after berbuka. Thanks guys for accompanying me.

I thought it was gonna be hard for me to say goodbye to her but miraculously i didnt even cry. Maybe it was because of bank rakyat bak kata juan. I kept on thinking of what she told me. I dont know why that "statistic" person keep on telling lies to everyone. Hey Mrs Statistic dont u know that people will eventually know u are making up stories ok! Kelak bok ko tauk malu sik tauk cney mok napok muka nak nak? Kali nang suka publisiti murahan kali nak. Sampei bapak ku pun diajak begosip hal mrs statistic. Lawak eh kamek. Apa jak tek kah. Tebik posa ku mun dah time posa. nasib gk time sahor bah.

Sigek gik kali aku layap nangga muka bank rakyat kali juan oooo. Hahahaha. After saying goodbyes we left and sent juan to cyber. I insisted that he followed me back to malacca but he said no. Eh kenja kawu ya.

One more thing that makes me wonder. Why on earth the are people who keep on acting that they're so good that the rest of people in this world are useless. Keep on talking this and that yet never realize that they are actually making fun of themselves. Ridiculous. Im not saying that im that good but please lah. Wake up! Do as what u said.

Eh sigek gik. Best juak klaka bahasa tanah kelahiran ku yer. Puas ku meluahkan perasaan walaupun ada org ya netak aku klaka bahasa aku pun nak. Kali ko jeles nak sekda bahasa lain k klaka bah. Iboh loba gilak eh. Sik mak ku muji kawu gia koh.

Till then, see u again soon.

God please fast forward the time!

Currently im listening to raya songs. omg. i miss kuching so much. raya la cepat. pleaseeee..ive started packing a bit cos im really in the mood for raya.

I wanna go back so bad. im tired of bebuka alone almost everyday. i wanna be with my fam. how i wish i can go back now but the stupid quiz is next week, on friday! arghhhh.. i didnt get barred anyway. alhamdulillah.

Dear God, can u make time go faster, please?