OMFG...

Farah, this is a surprise for u. Pegi carik lelaki hot yg ko suk gila babi. LAWAK.

Till then, see u again soon

p.s. amy n jaye pon ade

Take it or leave it.

Go to your playlist on your PC/Laptop/MP3/iPod etc, put it on shuffle and as you read each question, click on Next and write the title of the song on play as your answer. Don't cheat! It's funnier that way


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Cool Joke - Undo
-> what a nice joke haha.

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Love - Keyshia Cole
-> sentiasa in love ka aku ini?

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ruby Soho - Rancid
-> Org laki yg salu bagi jewellery dan akan bawa saya ke soho new york? wahhh. seronok.

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love Me Do - The Beatles
-> yeahh. mr love is here. i feel loved.

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Your Body Is Wonderland - John Mayer
-> aieeeeeeeee. jual badan ka apa?

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Give me tonite - Taylor Hicks
-> give apa kah itu? dalam maksudnya. haha.

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I will always love you - Whitney Houston
-> dah tau dah. haha.

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Nights on broadway - The beatles
-> woww. adakah saya suka berlakon? agakla kan. huahuahauahua.

9. WHAT IS 2+2?
Money Money - Billy Idol
-> wahhhh. duit gitu. tak boleh tgk number. mmg accountant.

10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Lelaki ini - Anuar Zain
-> Lelaki ini hensem kawan2 (sambil memberi link gambar kat fb). Oh tidak Lelaki ini tak berapa nak seronok sangat la kawan2 (kasi link lagi). Maksudnya tgk laki jer terus nak poret dgn kawan2. Begitu ke?

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
If tomorrow never comes - Ronan Keating
-> malam ni kita one nite stand? hahahahahaha.

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Pelangi petang - Sudirman
-> wah hidup saya kaler2 tau.

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dota - Basshunter
-> hah? jadi pemain dota ke? tidak mungkin.

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE
Ngilu - Butterfingers
-> bahagian mana kah yg ngilu itu? hmmmm.

15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I've got you under my skin - Michael Buble
-> Wahhh. Selalu diprotect. terharu terharu.

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hello - Lionel Ritchie.
-> my parents' fav song i guess sbb dua2 pakai caller tone lagu ini. niceeeeee.

17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Wherever you will go - The calling
-> heaven la of course. yerrr. konpiden lebeh. doa2 kan lah yer.

18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Is this it? - the strokes
-> suka bertanya perhaps? haha.

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Come fly with me - Michael buble
-> aucher kah? my god.

20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Because of you - Ne-yo
-> because of u, i am what i am now?

21. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
If i never see ur face again - maroon 5 n rihanna
-> yes mr love. if i never see ur face again!!!!!!!!!!!!

22. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Have yourself a merry christmas
-> aieeee kene bunuh dgn santa claus ke? hahaha.

23. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
You Give Me something - james morrison
-> betol betol. i regret u gave me something mr morrison!!!! babi.

24. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Something in the way - Nirvana
-> erk? tak faham.

25. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Who's ur daddy - Benny Benassi
-> MY GOODNESSSSS.

26. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
One Last Chance - James Morrison
-> wahh. meaning that one last chance is with mr love if not mmg tak kawen? haahahahaha.

27. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Summertime - Kat de Luna
-> hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahaha (aku suka lagu ni kot) aku patut dok tempat ade snow je kot. hahaha.

28. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The runaround - taylor hicks
-> mesti jogging banyak2 baru org suka? woww. bole tak?

29. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Confession - Usher
-> yeah. confession aku kepada farah pada satu hari itu.

30. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Taman Tasik Perdana - Butterfingers
-> eh?

31. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Take it or leave it - The strokes

Im tagging Amy, Jaye, Virus n Unte

I am the biggest camwhore.

I dont have anything to blog. Malas nak menggunakan otak. So lemme share some of the recent pics.

amy yg terpaksa menanggung keberatan kami haha


me.elle.chibi.dol.sharel comel.unte.


unte.amy.dol.me.sharel.


takde caption terlintas di dalam otak


yours truly mengegehkan dirik.


i look so flat chested here.huahuahua.


better chested here haha.


i was born a camwhore.

Yes. I bang-ed my hair. So did amy. Tribute to farah. haha. Tapi bende ni dah basi dah. Didnt blog about the hair cos wanted to surprise mr love last week.

Tapi die tak tekejut pon. Buat muka bodo jer.

Till then, see u again soon

*update: Happy 24th bday to viruschristinaaguilera! May Allah bless u always.

smell me di dalam bahasa melayu adalah cium saya?

Today my brother went cheap-perfume hunting for me. Poor him. Kakak nya ini sangat demand. Kejap nak ni kejap lagi tak jadi nak tu plak. hahaha. He called me entah brapa kali. Just to make sure it is the right one.

Actually im looking for something aqua-y or citrus-y. Dah bosan dgn sweet scents. I have the perfect one in mind which is Chanel Chance Eau Fraiche but too bad kat kedai tu takde. (hint!)

This is the perfume in case u get the hint kan. hehe.

After 100 times of phone call, he finally bought this:


For him and for her. The one that he bought came in a packaging of 50ml EDT and moisturizer. Guess how much it costs? AUD29 for each pack. Semua sekali AUD58. Since the exchange rate is kinda low which is around 2.35, bila diconvertkan ke our currency, it is around RM140 only for the 2 perfumes ok.

Tapi, of course all costs ditanggung oleh your highness duke of seduction, mr love. hehe. Thanks sayang.

Till then, see u again soon.

p.s. some spoiler. neither serena nor eric is the rufus-lily's child. not sure betul ke tak. and oh ya. aaron rose will be totally vanished from the series. yeay.

love is in the air.

Dear love,

I'm thankful that u are here with me for these few days. You totally made my day. How i wish that i could freeze the time so that these beautiful moments could last forever.

I know that u are still here but i miss u already =(

Till then, see u again soon

apples of my eyes.

i miss her

and him

and especially him =(

till then, see u again soon.

i am so horny. please fuck me.

me n amy have this one new hobby: which is to kacau org in the chat room n stickam. my god. plek2 k manusia2 yg kami jumpai.

what i can say is that the net is full of horny men. gay ke tak gay ke pon sumer desperate giler. guys, korang dah takde cara lain ke nak puaskan nafsu. mcm mana la korang bley turn on kan dgn org yg korang chat tu padahal tak tau pon muka mcm mana. sangat gross ok.

kalo mcm ni tak rasa jijik ke?

at times rasa bersalah la buat mcm tuh but then suka jer nak carik bahan gelak kan. siap kasi number fon la, address rumah la. gambar tak pyh cakap la. yg tunjuk kote pon lagi banyak. sangat tak suka tau. u guys hengat kami ini tersangat la horny sampai nk tgk kote yg dah la kecik, buruk pulak keadaan rupa paras nya itu? totally not. turned off terus tau tak.

tp mmg kelakar la berchat dgn org yg horny2 itu. kesian korang tak pasal2 kene gelak. lupa plak kan nak copy paste perbualan yg memualkan tersebut. kalau ade lagi nnt i post kan.

so guys, jangan la buat perkara2 mcm tu tau. so not cool. kang ade plak number fon korang kene jual ngan kiterang ni.

till then, see u again soon.


p.s. benci nyer real life chuck hookup dgn real life vanessa. chuck, kenapa kah kamu tidak suka dgn real life blair? sedeh tau. my real life nate plak dgn jenny. hahhhhhh.

hotness rank.

last week celebrated dol's bday. was a small surprise party for him. it was fun lah just to hang out with frens and gelak2 sampai tak hengat dunia.

the birthday boy

our big happy family.

last weekend mmg heaven giler. at last dapat gak jumpe ngan my darling jaye after like almost 3 yrs. we did a lot of catch up sampai jaye dah tertido2. huahauhaua. jaye u kene dtg lagi tau. i miss u already. =(

then there were juan and aiman. u guys totally cheered me up. i had a lot of fun having u guys around. farah jer yang takder tau. if not mmg perfect combination gitu.

pastuh kan. someone proposed to me. an irish guy tau. korang jangan maen2. tak sangka mak ni laku jugak. ajak kawen n dok kat ireland lagi. haha. pengsan aku. kepada org perasan tu kan, jangan jeles tau. i am still a hot stuff walaupon gemuk. ade ko hot mcm aku? haha. aku tau aku keji, jangan tegur.

kasut dah sama so sama la level of hotness kami ini kan? haha

tapi kan, sayang i rindu u (walaupon i sangat suka mat salleh)

till then, see u again soon.

just a short one

blogging from kurt's house. urghh. laptop yg gila itu membuat hal lagi. tiada apa2 paparan di screen. tension ok.

just wanna share some good news. i'm no longer 90+ girl. officially an 89kg hahahaha. lost another 3 kg. in total dah turun 11kg since august.

ohh i am so happy and so proud of myself.

till then, see u again soon.

mental illness yang dibuat buat.

i cant wait. juan n eman are coming to malacca. jaye pon sama. jaye! u better betul2 datang tau this time. i miss u so much. we have so much to catch up.

farah, kawu bila gik mok dtg? haha. sik sempat ko dtg melawat aku yg lonely ini di melaka cos by the time kawu balit aku dah pindah to cyber. tp yg penting harus aku pegi ngagak kawu in 2010.

i cant believe how people have changed these days. good gone bad, bad gone good. it surprises me. but thank god for me, ive learned my lessons and i am a better person now. haha. harusla aku memuji diri sendiri kan.

but i have this one bad habit that im trying to get rid of. i just cant stop bitching about ppl. i wonder why do i care so much about what's happening around me. why cant i just totally ignore all of that. most of the times bcos i tak leh control my mouth. urghhh. i do feel terrible after that tapi entahla i just cant stop.

you know what. aku benci org perasan. haha. suka nak merendah2 kan aku yer? adekah kau itu sgt insecure sbb aku sememangnya dilahirkan sangat cantik walaupon aku gemuk and still ade lelaki yg nak kat aku walaupon rupa parasku ini mempunyai lelemak di sana sini? (padehal sayang je nak kat i kan sayang?haha) hmmm. entahla badul.

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im bitching again. haha. tp itu luahan rasa sahaja. lupakan.

anyway, happy 21st bday to aizat@dol! may Allah bless u with happiness always.

till then, see u again soon.

bila sudah tiada apa yang hendak diblogkan.

last nite i went out with amy, kurt, virus, zack, unte n S. S is not for serena ok. that would be me. huahuahua.

first we went to spectrum. ade live band. but too bad band tu syok sendiri. D-U-H-H. then, we decided to go to aloha. best nyer perasaan setelah sudah lama tidak menggoyangkan badan. mmg fun giler la. we danced mcm org gila esp virus. thanx for the fun guys.

the best part of the nite was. jeng jeng jeng. i met someone with another guy kat aloha. my goodness. i was shocked. entahla. mebbe die dah takde ape2 kot dgn the other guy. anyway, malas dah la nak layan cos it's not my problem pon kan.

tapi kan, yg bosannyer takder camera nak capture the good memories. damn. still takde masa nak g beli my cam charger. ade ke tak org jual eh? sayang, if u ade masa tlg carikkan pls.

till then, see u again soon.

*edited. S is my classmate but due to some reasons i cant reveal the name. hehe.

abusive partner is a total no no.

last nite i watched PENSIL. cerita melayu yer kengkawan. i think kuar kat astro box office jer kot. not sure whether ade kat cinema ke tak. i watched it on youtube. g la search yer.



this movie mmg worth watching. best sangat2. weiii cerita ni sedehh gilerr. i menangis mmg tak hengat dunia. kalah cerita hindustan. pegi la menonton ye kak enon2 sekalian alam semesta.

ok topic lain plak yer. today i heard a really bad news. this one girl, kene pukul dgn balak die. it was so bad that perut die some sort of bengkak sebab kenak sepak/terajang or whatsoever. anddd. kaki and belakang die berbirat sbb kene pukul pakai belt.

so why do i care? cos she's a good fren of mine. one person that i care a lot. i love her like my little sister. walaupon die adelah tua daripada saya tetapi die sangat kecik jadi saya rasa saya ini adalah kakak besar dan die adik kecik.

mcm ini lah saya dan die tapi die pendek sikit

this thing boleh dielakkan if u dump that guy betol tak? so if anyone yg terkene benda2 mcm ni pls think deeply. that guy is not the one for u. there is someone better. this thing happened to me. i was abused like hell but i took the right step which was to move on and now i am truly happy with someone better.

fight for your right and to guys out there if u care deeply for a lady u wont do such thing. say no to abuse everyone!

till then, see u again soon

dream dream dream.

last nite i was ym-ing with farah.

tiba2 terkeluarla percakapan angan2 iaitu "kami mahu membuka sebuah restoran yg di sebelahnya ada butik utk plas saiz".haha.



for this time being it will be named J-FAG. raged kan nama itu. dan kami sudah ada customer sasaran tapi identitinya harusla dirahsiakan sbb nanti saya akan gelak (juan, later i'll tell u). orang itu akan promote kepada network nya yg sgt luas. dan tupppp bisnes kami pasti pemos.

kami juga sudah ada task utk masing2. business maju kene ade plan yg gempak mcm kami. sbb tu bisnes kami sudah pasti akan maju. saya percaya dan saya yakin.

saya akan jadi chef yg bertugas di area pembuatan dessert dan juga pastry.

saya di masa hadapan.kekeke.

farah plak will cook the main dish. diva tau perempuan ini. nk jugak jadi centre of attraction. tergugat mak yg hot ni

farah, stop romensing in the kitchen ok? yahhh suk kenak berik ompuan tok.

juan will be preparing the appetiser. opening act. nuff said.

sekda laki arab. laki italian ok sik? haha

dan kami akan menghire nor shuputs menjadi pekerja kami yg akan menghabiskan banyak masa kat butik kami.die kan suka sgt keje kat kedai2 baju ni. sesuey sangat dah tu.


gegerl nak jadi ape plak? dah habes dah position kat kedai. hmmm.

tukang sapu jer?

till then, see u again soon.

p.s. gegerl jgn marah tau. mak main2 jer. gegerl jadi shareholder je lah yer. rakan tidor kata farah.
p.s.s. i hope this comes true. esp the future me haha.

krazy thought for the day.

i think i wanna be a vegetarian. haha.

just now me n chibi went makan at ixora. at first ingat nak makan bakso but then i want to eat sayur sayuran. bakso ade veges but ciput nyerrr. kedekut tau abg cina kedai indo rasa tu.

so i went to the vegetarian stall. i took so many types of sayur sayuran: four angle beans, encik labu, mushroom n egg tofu, tofu yg konon2 nya ayam tp tak rasa sgt pon mcm ayam and also tofu yg rasanya mcm ikan masak sweet sour.

i swear mmg sedap gilerrrrrr. and utk semua sekali sayur sayuran itu i was charged rm2.60! just imagine my pinggan is so very the penuh. i thought akan kene rm4 ke.

omg. sangat la interesting makan sayuran itu. tu yg tiba2 terasa nak jadi vegetarian. murah sedap mengenyangkan dan juga sangat menyihatkan utk org gemuk mcm i ni.

bolela jadi kurus mcm ini kan.haha.berangan lebey tau.

tp kan lepas tu i tak puas. i went back to the stall n amek OKRA (yerrr tekenang farah koh), ikan fake itu dan ade lagi egg tofu. hahahahahaha. lepas itu baru saya puas hati.

erk.terasa i tau.

so i think i wanna be vegetarian for certain days only lah cos i wont give up my fetish(mcm geli jer dgr) for chicken and ikan dan lembu dan kambing dan segala species binatang yg saya suka. tp fetish utk makan saja ler. saya tidak sayang binatang2 itu.

till then, see u again soon.

where art thou stamina?

i dropped another 1 kg today. makes me weigh 92kg.

i just feel good today. yesterday sucks cos sayang went back. but today i'm feeling totally great. plus after the loss of 1kg although i ate mcm babi last 3 days.

i am proud of myself cos now i am able to run. the old me couldnt run and dont want to. but now i would say i have a new hobby which is to exercise.

but i still lack of stamina. i ran out of breath easily. plus im smoking. so now i would wait at least 2 hours after smoking, then only i exercise.

my goal after i have enough energy+stamina: to play serious tennis(running ok) haha.

today me n chibi accompanied amy to her netball training and all the girls forced me to join together. but how in the hell i wanna play? i dont even know how to play and now i am unofficially blind if i dont wear my specs. but i ran 2 rounds of the court though, just to satisfy their request haha.susah org glemer ni tau.

i am determined to exercise as much as i can cos i love it now.

till then, see u again soon

i decided not to put my food and exercise journal in my blog anymore as i know people laugh at me.

till then, see u again soon.

20.11.2008 Day 4, Week 1 Healthy Living Program

To farah: no worries. apology accepted. muahahahaha.

yesterday i weighed myself. it was a nightmare just to berdiri atas penimbang sakti itu. but turned out aku sangat la bahagia. i lost 2 kg after gaining 4 kg during holiday. i've only started for a few days. i am soooo excited. and sayang came last night around 3am. Gosh i'm still shocked.

the reason i decided to lose weight in the first place was because my weight reached 100kg. Then, after 2 months plus dieting and exercising, i was 91kg, just before going back to kch. then i gained back to 95kg after raya. and now i am 93kg.

Food
I cant remember the time i ate yesterday.
Morning - One egg omellette w/out any oil or salt. 3 tablespoon of oat and some milk.
Noon - Ikan keli, one egg, i dont know the name of the vege.
Evening - One skrem duak posen tp rega nya tiga posen. One piece of choc cookies(low cal one)
Night - One handful of honey star
4.00 am - I decided to treat myself so i ate Roti Sandwich and i curi a lil bit of sayang's maggi.

Exercise
30 minutes walking
25 minutes on a stepper

Till then, see u again soon.

19.11.08 Day 3, Week 1 Healthy Living Program

i didnt go to class today.i woke up late again! we supposed to climb up bukit beruang again today but sadly it was raining heavily. so plan cancelled.

Food:
4.30pm one glass of fat free yogurt drink
5.30pm one piece of biscuit (i dont know the name)
7.30pm approx. one and a half palm size serving of beef, one begedil, one piece chicken liver, one cup of kangkong.
9.30pm a lil bit of mamee monster i took from chibi
12.45pm two tiny slices of beef cocktail + one handful honey stars

Exercise:
6.45pm 15 minutes walking
11.10pm 15 minutes walking+jogging

Till then, see u again soon

p.s. im thinking of blogging in BM.hmmm.still considering.

18.11.2008 Day 2 Week 1 Healthy Living Program

dont read if u think it's boring and u think u wanna make fun of me. this is my food and exercise journal.

basically, this is the new program started yesterday. i promise to myself i will record everything i eat and every activities i do for everyday so that i can monitor my healthy living program.

food:
4.30 pm ( i woke up late today haha) - 150g low fat strawberry yogurt
8.30pm - one medium size fish, one cup of spinach, egg tofu, tempe+tofu.
12.00am - one glass of yogurt drink
1.50am - 3 jacobs hi fibre low salt with tuna and peanut butter+jelly
exercise:
15 minutes of walking
45 minutes of walking

till then, see u again soon

of ciggy and girls.

smoking. suddently i remember my dad once said "smoking is mmu female students' identity is it?" i just laughed.

so, is it wrong for girls to smoke?

for me it's not a big problem since i smoke too. it doesnt mean that all those girls are sluts. it's just not a nice view to see. it's a very bad image to the girls (including me, i know).

but it's a big problem IF u smoke cos u try to be cool, want to be in the clique. and IF u try to show off that u're smoking. hello! it's not cool ok. u look bad. i hate it if girls smoke in front of the elders. i only smoke if there is no elders around or the elders i know that doesnt mind.

sadly, i admit that when i started smoking 7 years ago it was because i want to look cool but as i grow up i realize it's not for the show anymore. i am addicted.i feel quite regretful to start smoking in the first place.

how i wish i could stop but i guess i am not ready yet. it's my only way out of my misery. ceyh. but it has affected me now. i ran out of breath easily, i always have sore throat and etc.

so girls or even guys, please dont ever try to smoke. it's not good for ur health and ur image too. it's totally not cool ok.trust me.

till then, see u again soon.

Youthsays?

yesterday farah told me about youthsays. i was like what? ok. so today i google youthsays and what i found is very interesting. you get paid for taking surveys, etc.!

if u haven't joint, u better do so. earn some money while blogging. after all u have nothing to lose. click here to join. enjoy earning some money and voice out ur opinion!

another one

lupak. just now while i was walking, some kids perli me cos i exercise. i gave them middlefinger.

wtf. at least i exercise. i have some efforts to lose weight. salah ke if orang gemuk exercise? dah aku gemuk ko jugak kutuk kan. i hate those stupid people. fuck you and go to hell. harap2 ko dapat bini gemuk. i hate u.

till then, fuck u motherfuckers.

sense of accomplishment.

today i had my 1st presentation for this trimester. it was about my hometown. it was ok i think but i was rambling until this came out: we don't live on trees, we do wear clothes and we dont walk on bare foot. all my classmates including the lecturer laugh like mad. haha.

and guess what. the lecturer asked me why didnt i mention about the spring cos it has one attraction which is : TA KIONG. i was like, huh? ok.

the best thing happened today. for the first time in i cant remember how many years i walked for almost 3 miles.

and even better i officially step my feet on the bear hill for the 1st time ever (yer. sak nama nya bukit beruang). i managed to climb halfway and i am proud of it cos i climbed after i walked from taman dahlia to bunga raya. the bukit is very steep and me being scared of height i felt like falling down. it is fcking scary.

since this blog is actually some kind of my journal throughout my weight loss process, i wanna list down what i ate today.

breakfast: 3 tablespoon of instant oat with a lil bit of milk - around 9 am.
lunch: one ikan kembong with approx. one cup of spinach - 12pm
snack: one handful honey stars - 4.30pm
dinner: one glass of mango juice with 4 pieces of the tiny milo bars - 7.30pm
supper: 3 jacob hi fibre low salt with 1 tablespoon of peanut butter+jelly

btw, i still dont have the guts to weigh myself after the holiday. i am just too scared.

till then, see u again soon.

rintihan anak tiri.

sayang, u adelah sgt kejam.
oklah u tak kejam.
orang HR kat office u tu kejam.
die jeles la tu kan sayang.
kalo u tak dtg sape nk dodo kan i.
tamo la tunggu lama2.
i dah rindu la.
sayang cepat2 datang tau sayang.
i tunggu.

randomness.

last nite amy mentioned: "surprisingly i am still in love with kurt the way i did 2 yrs ago".

yes. that's how i feel towards sayang. it's still clear in my mind how we ended up being together. we just hang out and kept on talking talking and talking. we watched movies together on his pc. it's amazing, you know, reminiscing to good old memories. makes me miss him more.sigh.

if u guys ask me do i miss my high school years. i would say no. to me that was the downturn of my life.too many things happened.too many people were hurt by me.i guess i was the stupidest person ever existed.luckily those days are gone.meet the new me.

i can be very nice but i can be very mean. u choose what u want to get from me. tips: find the right time to talk to me. if i just woke up after long hours of sleeps, that is the worst time to talk to me. sometimes i would ignore u.

that reminds me of an iban girl whom i met few days ago. at first i was very excited meeting her. sama kampong tek nak. it was until she mentioned this: kamek dah tak berapa pandai cakap bahasa sarawak koh. WTF? hello. i hate u. totally. after that i just ignored her.haha.

till then, see u again soon

p.s. i gained back some of the weight i lost before. i hate going back to kuching (well a metaphore only k)

deep within.

blue.
not socializing enough.
dont want to.
missing ur presence.
tired.
sick of gossips, not gossip girl.
denise austin, i need u.
seduction, shooh.
feeling blaire.
tuesday and thursday, must.
nate in michael way.
junior i adore, blew my sadness.
less of m i need most.
clc here i come. i promise.

till then, see u again soon.

a sinner, yes i am.

i have a confession. i have done a very huge mistake. i admitted to doing it and im guilty as charged.

i never intended to start the whole things but i cant resist the seduction. i thought i have enough strength to defeat the goddamn demon but turned out that i am not. oh lord. what have i done? i am full of regrets wishing that things are gonna be the way they were.

this time around i promise to myself i wont do such things ever again. i must be stronger!

till then, see u again soon.

p.s. 18 more subjects and i will complete my degree.cant wait.

to go or not to go?

i'm moving to cyberjaya this coming june. it's frantically sad for me to leave the old malacca. seriously. i dont know why but i kinda feel it already. to leave this house that i called home these few years. oh god. it makes me wanna cry just to think about moving.

i have few doubts that make me go back to thinking, should i go or should i not? let's say if i go. i dont have anyone that i know in class. i have to make new friends. next is i have to stay in the hostel! i have one more to year to go once i move, so it's not really a good idea to find a new house to rent. in hostel i cant smoke! some ppl might say thats good but currently it's not for me. it's the only thing left for me to entertain my emotional wrecks.sigh.

then, i have to sell off all my furnitures here in malacca. it's hard to get rid of everything. it's not everyday ppl want to buy furnitures. 2nd hand furthermore. finding a new person to rent my room is another story. it's all very tiring. in cyberjaya sayang cant lepak in my room, so no more cuddle up in the room. haha. but seriously we're not comfortable of PDA especially for him la kan. tetttt.

but there are some good points if i go. my parents and my nenek think it's good thing. they insist me to go. it will be easier for me to gerak from klia. instead of riding the stop-at-every-destination bus to seremban, then a different bus to malacca, i will only have to spend RM6.20 on transportation. (tol ka juan?). i will be nearer to sayang. so he doesnt have to drive all the way to malacca to see me anymore. so can dating everytime he cuti la kan. haha. next is i have juan to be with me in cyber. and amy too. hmmm.

right now im only 60% sure of moving. i just feel very comfortable of living in malacca. when i move, it will take time for me to adapt to the whole new environment. will it be this comfortable? i just have no idea.

till then, see u again soon.

back on track

so now i'm back in malacca.arghh.all i can think of now are exams, assignments, books, attendance and bla bla bla. it's very stressful to study! dgr malacca jer i feel like i wanna pengsan.

so much things happen during my holidays. sorry no pictures cos i lost my charger cum usb cable. u guys have any idea whether or not they sell cam charger? i desperately need one. one thing i remember the most is seeing an omputeh's dick! my god. luckily he's gorgeous cos if not i'll be dead by now.

few days back i got to know one young man from wales. his name is Oshian Conn. and her mother's name is COMEL. hahahahaha. that's how he spelled his mother's name. my goodness i tell u he's adorable, bubbly, funny and very lovable. and he's 8 by the way.so i asked him whether he got any older cousins(since he told me he's the only child), and he said: yes but they're going to NZ for a holiday. not for few days but 2 yrs. haha. my heart was jumping like hell cos i was very excited. and then he said : they're 10 and 11.OMFG. I felt like i wanna drown myself in the pool!

but nothing can beats the time i spent with my family and friends. it's precious and priceless. they make me smile with true happiness. now i'm here i feel teribly lonely. i miss all the laughs, the stupid jokes, everything. haihhh. next holiday please?

to sayang: thanks for sending me off to malacca. i appreciate it. u're the best.

till then, see u again soon.

She made me smile.

The latest addition to the family. Welcome baby Arina Zahra bt Azdhar Zulkarnain! You just made me smile cos ure too adorable.

Late Raya Post

Right now i just want to turn back the time and make it raya time again. huhu. It's a late raya post cos ive been very very extremely busy these few weeks. currently im in the middle of my final exams. im taking 4 papers and have done with 1 paper. the other two i took mcs. the reason?i enjoyed my raya too much that i didnt study at all (a bit oni la). haha.im the type of person who wont go to exams if im not fully prepared.im scared of getting bad grades.

Oh yea. I have a news. But it's just a maybe lah. Not confirmed yet. Still waiting for the other side to give their permission. Probably we're getting engaged by this year. Not in a big ceremony la and minus all the hantaran. Bertekol kata org sarawak koh. I refused to do it in a ceremony cos im still too fat to take all the good pics. Kekeke. After all it's a waste of money. But dont be too excited (ceyh sapa ka yang excited) cos its still pending.

My raya was ok but not that good cos number one: less angpao, secondly: i needed to go back to malacca on the 4th day of raya. I visited less houses this year. A few friends' and close relatives' only. My open house was on the 3rd day of raya. It sucks to celebrate raya in such a rush! Here are my raya pics. Didnt take much photos .

Me Eman and juan - celebrating juan's bday, few days before raya

Pose ala2 antm cycle 11. Fierce eyes kata dirikku haha!

Hamper from eman haha

My famous choc cheese cake LOL

Some of the cakes i baked


1st Day of Raya:

Sisters!

Me, Great-grandma and cousin Liz

Me, Kak Anny and Liz

Camwhoring di pagi raya?


Bersalam-salaman, bermaaf-maafan. My dad in the orangey yellow baju melayu.


Sabri giving out angpaos


Aunty Dollie, Me, Grandma and Great-grandma

Abang's House. Abis pak udin diloyar ku koh.


2nd Day of Raya:

Me and nenek who used to be my babysitter

Us at Farah's house


Dilla's House

3rd Day of Raya- Open House:

With my parents, siblings, and some of uncles, aunts, and cousins from my dad's side


with azid's frens. aku tauk ko jeles nak nak? taun depan balit ler


eman, juan, amal, nawi, shade, me, lynn, bob, noor


Juan, me and bob - bob's house, 7th Day of Raya


My Sweethearts:

My nephew, azam si anak tambi haha


Azam again!

Arman was infected with HFMD. Poor little boy.

Till then, see u again soon.