finally.

I would like to announce that i am getting engaged on 26th of June 2009.

I used to say that im ready to settle down and everything, but masa mr love's mom called and nak confirm pasal this thing, i freaked out. i felt like ade batu besar hit me on the head. baru terasa mcm ohhh aku muda lagi. betul ke aku dah nak kawen ni. yahhh kotan kenja tek mok nikah. dah diberik cuakkkk.

at first, his mom nak srh kawen sekarang. lagi la i takut mcm cibai. then, i told mr love that i nak kawen in 2 yrs time. after dah habes blaja and i dah start keje. but then, his dad ckp lama sgt. urghhh.. i still dont have the answer for that. it's not like i tanak kawen. i seriously want this. tapii i nak kawen pakai my own money. not my parents'.

guess what, i dah bz plan how my wedding will be. the cake, the dress, the reception. lol. been discussing with amy, farah, juan n eman. ohh n jaye pon ade lukis some dresses. haha. (btw, congrats to the the new lovebird.hee.) omg. thanks guys sbb melayan perangai gila kwn korang ni. amy lagilaaa, lukis layout reception and lekat dekat dinding beside my tilam. haha.

this is a bit lame, but terima kaseh to farah for the sweet present. i love it so so much.

i got this set. sukeeee.

Till then, see u again soon.

smell me di dalam bahasa melayu adalah cium saya?

Today my brother went cheap-perfume hunting for me. Poor him. Kakak nya ini sangat demand. Kejap nak ni kejap lagi tak jadi nak tu plak. hahaha. He called me entah brapa kali. Just to make sure it is the right one.

Actually im looking for something aqua-y or citrus-y. Dah bosan dgn sweet scents. I have the perfect one in mind which is Chanel Chance Eau Fraiche but too bad kat kedai tu takde. (hint!)

This is the perfume in case u get the hint kan. hehe.

After 100 times of phone call, he finally bought this:


For him and for her. The one that he bought came in a packaging of 50ml EDT and moisturizer. Guess how much it costs? AUD29 for each pack. Semua sekali AUD58. Since the exchange rate is kinda low which is around 2.35, bila diconvertkan ke our currency, it is around RM140 only for the 2 perfumes ok.

Tapi, of course all costs ditanggung oleh your highness duke of seduction, mr love. hehe. Thanks sayang.

Till then, see u again soon.

p.s. some spoiler. neither serena nor eric is the rufus-lily's child. not sure betul ke tak. and oh ya. aaron rose will be totally vanished from the series. yeay.

love is in the air.

Dear love,

I'm thankful that u are here with me for these few days. You totally made my day. How i wish that i could freeze the time so that these beautiful moments could last forever.

I know that u are still here but i miss u already =(

Till then, see u again soon

apples of my eyes.

i miss her

and him

and especially him =(

till then, see u again soon.

rintihan anak tiri.

sayang, u adelah sgt kejam.
oklah u tak kejam.
orang HR kat office u tu kejam.
die jeles la tu kan sayang.
kalo u tak dtg sape nk dodo kan i.
tamo la tunggu lama2.
i dah rindu la.
sayang cepat2 datang tau sayang.
i tunggu.

back on track

so now i'm back in malacca.arghh.all i can think of now are exams, assignments, books, attendance and bla bla bla. it's very stressful to study! dgr malacca jer i feel like i wanna pengsan.

so much things happen during my holidays. sorry no pictures cos i lost my charger cum usb cable. u guys have any idea whether or not they sell cam charger? i desperately need one. one thing i remember the most is seeing an omputeh's dick! my god. luckily he's gorgeous cos if not i'll be dead by now.

few days back i got to know one young man from wales. his name is Oshian Conn. and her mother's name is COMEL. hahahahaha. that's how he spelled his mother's name. my goodness i tell u he's adorable, bubbly, funny and very lovable. and he's 8 by the way.so i asked him whether he got any older cousins(since he told me he's the only child), and he said: yes but they're going to NZ for a holiday. not for few days but 2 yrs. haha. my heart was jumping like hell cos i was very excited. and then he said : they're 10 and 11.OMFG. I felt like i wanna drown myself in the pool!

but nothing can beats the time i spent with my family and friends. it's precious and priceless. they make me smile with true happiness. now i'm here i feel teribly lonely. i miss all the laughs, the stupid jokes, everything. haihhh. next holiday please?

to sayang: thanks for sending me off to malacca. i appreciate it. u're the best.

till then, see u again soon.

Im cluesless of how i feel

Last Saturday i went to kl. The main point : to see farah before she leaves for London. I actuually planned for a daytrip but sayang insisted that i sleep over at his house. So i did.

On Saturday i bought a 9.45am ticket but managed to use the 8.45 bus instead. Sayang fetched me at Pudu (god i hate this place so much). Later, accompanied him shopping for his baju kerja. We went to Sungei Wang. He bought 2 shirts and a pants. I sempat bought a grey long sleeved baju and a pair of flip flop. Later i bought some stuff for baking raya cookies (semangat tau!).

We reached his house around 5pm. Then i tidur till 6.30 pm. Mesti mak mentua aku menyirap jer. His mom cooked one of my favourite dish, Laksa Penang. Fuhhh. Layan sialll. The best Laksa ever. haha. suka la mak mentua aku kalo dgr. I adore her cos she cook everything on her own. Even kueh (bukan kueh raya nong). The laksa mee pon she made it herself. I ate the laksa for bbuka and sahur too. Penat je die masak nasik and lauk.

On sunday i woke up at 11am. Memang menyumpah org tua tu. haha. Watched tv and later went out to KLCC. Sayang bought another pants. Then buka puasa with hana, farah and juan at chili's. Fuhh memang kenyang stock tak leh bernafas. The meal was on farah. Thanx darling. Klak ku chia kawu topspot gik. Tunggu kawu balit la so that means next year. Haha.

Then we went to nose. I fell in love with this one shoes. Nang ku paksa ku gerek ku meli. But he said no unless i buy other shoes cos he said the shoes is ugly. I cant make up my mind and we went to Vincci hoping to find some other nice shoes. But the shoes were all crap. So melepas laa cos it was almost 9 and we needed to rush to Pudu. Then said goodbye to farah. My goodness. It was so fcking sad. i cried.

At Pudu i loan some money from sayang cos i used my money to top up my fon. I havent withdraw my money so pinjam from him. Later he called and told me i dont have to pay back and use the money to buy shoes instead. Thanx sayang. You're the best.

To Farah : Goodbye to you. I wish u the very best of luck. I will miss u so fcking much. Waaaa. Tinggal la aku juan n gegerl. Bait2 ko d sinun eh. Iboh lupak carik laki ala2 aucher k aku haha. Hope to see u again soon. Sorry sekpat anta kawu ke apot. mun ada keta mok ku pegi tp apakan daya aku ini pejalan kaki plg berjaya. Mun ku ke apot jalan kaki cepat gilak ku kurus klak. Haha. Anyway, have a safe journey. I will always pray for u.

That's why im clueless of how i feel about last weekend. Happiness? Sadness? urghh entahla. The mix of both kali tp ney satu lebeh banyak? yahhh. sekpat ku jawab.

some pics i managed to snap:



Till then, see u again soon especially to farah amami marzuki yg ku sayang gila babi.

Happiness =)

This weekend i spent time with sayang. He surprised me again! He drove all the way to malacca and he's having a fever. i am totally touched. He reached malacca around 10 pm on friday and tapao me some of his mom's homemade kueh. Ahhhh greatness.

So we did some shopping and bought a brand new wallet, a dress for my sis, a new eyeliner and some groceries. Last week i bought a new cardigan, a small so-called yellow carpet and a towel. hehe. For both days we broke fast at aladdin and sahur at tomyam.

He came with a good news. He finally got a job at celcom and will be starting on the 15th. Alhamdulillah. I am relieved. I am very happy for him and for myself as well. I got a new source of income hahahaha. Kejam tau mak ni. He promised me an ang pao for this coming raya. Jangan kasi 5 rgt jer plak sudey.

He left at 9pm today after bebuka and after some groceries shopping again. Lalalala. I wish we couldve spent more times haihhh.

Another good news for me. Brand new season of gossip girl and antm have started. Yeay! Ive been waiting for so long. Now i have something to look forward to. Aww i'm in heaven is it?

The first episode of gossip girl really makes me wanna orgasm cos serena and dan are back together muahahaha. Yeah baby that's what i wanna see. Thank goodness. Some spoiler for second episode haha:

Blair (Leighton Meester) is over the moon that she is dating royalty and has every intention of becoming a royal herself, but a scheming Chuck (Ed Westwick) has other plans for Blair and hew new love, Marcus (guest star Patrick Heusinger). Serena (Blake Lively) and Dan (Penn Badgley) agree to keep their recent hook-ups a secret from their friends and family until they figure out what all this means for their relationship. Meanwhile, Nate (Chace Crawford) learns the downside to having an affair with a hot older woman, Catherine (guest star Madchen Amick), who also happens to be married.

As for antm, this cycle really made a headline. There's a transsexual competing in this cycle. Her name is Isis. I pity her so much cos almost every girls bitches about him. Kurang ajar k. I would say so far my fav are marjorie (her style resembles agyness), sheena (she looks like kimora and her body is smoking hot!), and ellina (her eyes are stunning in the pics but she's a lesbo lol). Here's the vid :



Just now i tried a new recipe which is a non bake cake. It is basically a choc and peanut butter cake. I'm still waiting for it to set in the fridge but mcm menjadi jer hehehehe. I will post the recipe after this. I also cooked some bubur jagong with macaroni, sagu and cendol. Yea baby, yummy yum yum.

Here some pics of me for this week. Im vain i know hahaha.

Me without the makeup

Me trying on my new eyeshadow and eyeliner

In conjunction with antm cycle 11 hahaha

Till then, see u again soon.

Destiny, it is.

He. He is the very last person i ever thought will touch and capture my heart. Yet, he did. Indeed, i am very much in love with this guy.

He is the exact opposite of what i am looking for in a guy. With this geeky look, annoying, harsh, insensitive, why on earth am i in love with him? He is not the person whom i can talk to. Very contrary to the fact that i am a talking machine who can talk for hours. He is a man with little words. Still, i am in love with him.

Honestly,i do wish that he could change. Yea, i know it sounds selfish but i want someone who treats me like a princess, can talk to me for hours (just like what aucher did! lol!), who is sweet. But i know i wont get that from him and you know what, i dont regret it. As long as i still can have him, it's enough for me (but please try to be a good listener will u? haha). Kater tempat meluahkan perasaan kan? kan?

Enough about what i want. Everything is beyond the look or whatsoever. It's what he can give me that matters. He loves me the way i am, he gives me the warmth, the sense of security, and i think he is the only person (well, of course apart from my parents and grandparents) who can handle a complicated, emotional, bitchy, very demanding talking machine like me, which i am very thankful of. (I still feel very guilty of the way i treated him all this while though..haihh)

Just wanna share some pics of us:

our first few days together - May 2006

2006

2007

2006 - few months after moving to taman dahlia

2006

Fit's farewell bbq - 2007

2007

Genting trip with my fam - 2007

just another nite out - purebar

his 24th bday, 29.10.07 in kuching

damai beach - oct 2007

his graduation day - 11.08.08
(look how gemuk he is now!)

Anyway, sayang if ure reading this, you've touched my heart and i just wanna tell u for the millionth time that i do love u for whoever u are. To me, you are the the most charming guy in the world and in my eyes u are near to perfect. I just cant wait for the day you are officially the one i spend my whole life with.

This is destiny - when you fall for the least expected one and next thing you know, he is the one.

When loneliness strikes

i just miss u so fucking much. it does hurt me a lot, in case u dont know that. luckily ur baju is here so that i can sleep with the smell of ur scents and it makes me feel comfortable, as if u are here with me. well i try so much to deny this feeling of missing u but fuck, i just cant. this is the problem of getting used to always having u around. haihhhh. just get ur ass over here will u?