Day 2, week 7

26th August 2008

Nothing much happened today. I woke up at 11.00 am and went to campus to withdraw rental money. Waited for Tan to come and in the end he came at 2.15pm.

I asked affa to pay the water bills which has increased fuckingly to RM40. WTF wei! Matila mcm ni. There are only 4 of us left in the house. Lama2 my parents pun botak. Luckily we terminated the astro. We now have to spend roughly RM70 for utilities only. Haihhh. The stupid YTM money is not coming out yet. I am so damn broke. Dahla i lost house's money RM200. Mana nak korek ni??. Jual bontot boley tak? haha.

But the good news for today, i'm nearer to my goal of losing 10kg before raya. 3 more kgs to go. The funny thing is my initial goal was to lose 20 kg before raya. ade hati plak kan. mcm senang jer bunyi nyer nk lost 20 kg. Bluwekkk. Some pics to share:


This is what i ate today:

Breakfast-11.30am
One table spoon of oat + 1 table spoon of condensed milk.

Lunch - 1.00 pm
Half can of tuna in water stir fried with onion with 1 tea spoon of cooking oil and 2 hard boiled egg + soy sauce

Snack 1 - 5.30 pm
2 tablespoon of steamed sweet corn

Dinner - 7.30 pm
Sweet Sour Fish

Snack 2 - 9.00 pm
One slice of kek batik

Supper - 11.30 pm
One piece of beef burger without any buns, with chili sauce and mayo.

My Workouts:

• Walking back from campus - 10 minutes
• Walking to gym - 12 minutes
• Step walker - 15 minutes (approximately 150 calories burned)
• Cycling on stationary bike - 30 minutes (approximately 260 calories burned)
• Weight training for arms - 10 minutes
• Weight training for thighs+tummy - 10 minutes
• Walking back from gym - 12 minutes

Total kg lost : 7 kg (still a long way to go to the total goal haha)

Sunshines on a cloudy day.

The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau

To be honest,deep in my heart I kinda dislike to make new friends, nooo not in a way that i am bitchy or whatnot (ok a lil bit bitchy lah), but it's just that i treasure my existing friends so much. ahakss. New friends mean my friends need to share the loves with the new ones. So unfair to them cos everyone wants to be my friend you know. muahahahahaha. eii perasan lebey tau i ni.

Takde la just kidding. Just that new friends mean u need to start all over again. U never know what are their true colors. What if they are going to be another bitch that's gonna ruin ur life? Then how? Cos i've experienced this. It's very traumatic. But undeniably u have to make new friends. It's very helpful to be friendly.

Friends do make ur bland life colorful. They add flavors to ur tasteless life. But as u know, too much "MSG" is bad for u. Same goes to friends. Too much drama are bad. Totally bad. U need to accept the friends they way they are. It's hard though. So, my advice: bitch about them in ur blog hahahahaha. Bodo la aku ni. Berdosa tau buat mcm tuh. Tp mulut aku ni mmg jahat, what to do? hahaha.

But i think the best thing to do is to avoid being too clingy with the friends (unless u very are sure that they can stand u). U may think that they dont mind but u shud remember that not everyone can stand ur behaviour.

For this post i'm gonna introduce a few of my closest friends.

Farah. She never fails to lend me a helping hand whenever i need one. She is the greatest friend i can ever ask for. I may say that she knows me the best, in and out. We share a lot in common (especially in terms of size haha). Bak kata org tua, pandei kawu carik kawan sama gemok. lol. I would never trade her for anyone else. She's truly an angel, who can laugh and cry with me (sak jak lebeh ke tetak).

Juan. He's totally the man. He can crack jokes anytime anywhere. Being with him, u can almost forget all the problems u have. It's very hard to see him being down. He is always full of smiles and laughters. Oh yeah, he got passion for shoes. what kind of shoes? u figure it out urself. haha.

Eman. Erk. Perlukah? Sekda bah eman. Alu kecik ati. The best thing about him: everything is on him. hahaha. but it's not the main reason he is a good friend (yerdeh k ngambik ati jak tek duhal haha). He's a good listener. U can tell him everything. He's always there for u. Just a word for u eman: money is not everything.it cant buy u friends.

Amy. She is the closest friend i have in malacca. She is the sweetest, with her motherly character. She sees only the best in u, far beyond all the flaws u have. She is willing to go through thick and thin with u. She cares about people around her. A very pretty girl with a soft heart. I reckon that she's gonna be a good mother.

Chibi. A little sister to us at home. Very good with her money (sapa accountant ni sebenarnya?). My loan institute haha. Someone i can talk to for hours lol. My gym partner.

Deera. A very soft spoken girl. The yoga instructor. You can get good tips on exercise from her. Always smiling. Org yg aku salu curi maggi haha. She loves to clean the house. Without her i dont know what our house will look like.lol.

The guys from no 8 taman dahlia. All of them are just like brothers to me. Very protective. Someone u can turn to. Great friends.

Budak2 cina. haha. people i can hang out with and just laugh together.

Vic, Tengku Bob, Ee Swak, Sara. Another great friends of mine. My darlings, who cheer my days just being with them.

To all of my friends, u guys have added bright colors to my life. I will always cherish all the memories. If i ever talk bad about u guys, that shows i do care about u. I just want u guys to be the best. You give me strength to face this cruel and unfair world. You guys are truly sunshines on my cloudy days.

Till then, see u again soon.

Destiny, it is.

He. He is the very last person i ever thought will touch and capture my heart. Yet, he did. Indeed, i am very much in love with this guy.

He is the exact opposite of what i am looking for in a guy. With this geeky look, annoying, harsh, insensitive, why on earth am i in love with him? He is not the person whom i can talk to. Very contrary to the fact that i am a talking machine who can talk for hours. He is a man with little words. Still, i am in love with him.

Honestly,i do wish that he could change. Yea, i know it sounds selfish but i want someone who treats me like a princess, can talk to me for hours (just like what aucher did! lol!), who is sweet. But i know i wont get that from him and you know what, i dont regret it. As long as i still can have him, it's enough for me (but please try to be a good listener will u? haha). Kater tempat meluahkan perasaan kan? kan?

Enough about what i want. Everything is beyond the look or whatsoever. It's what he can give me that matters. He loves me the way i am, he gives me the warmth, the sense of security, and i think he is the only person (well, of course apart from my parents and grandparents) who can handle a complicated, emotional, bitchy, very demanding talking machine like me, which i am very thankful of. (I still feel very guilty of the way i treated him all this while though..haihh)

Just wanna share some pics of us:

our first few days together - May 2006

2006

2007

2006 - few months after moving to taman dahlia

2006

Fit's farewell bbq - 2007

2007

Genting trip with my fam - 2007

just another nite out - purebar

his 24th bday, 29.10.07 in kuching

damai beach - oct 2007

his graduation day - 11.08.08
(look how gemuk he is now!)

Anyway, sayang if ure reading this, you've touched my heart and i just wanna tell u for the millionth time that i do love u for whoever u are. To me, you are the the most charming guy in the world and in my eyes u are near to perfect. I just cant wait for the day you are officially the one i spend my whole life with.

This is destiny - when you fall for the least expected one and next thing you know, he is the one.

"Mengeratkan silaturrahim" game party haha

Last nite we're having some sort of all-about-game party at pantai puteri. The main point is : mengeratkan silaturrahim (amy's quote since the 1st time she mentioned about this party). It was planned at the very last minute but we managed to pull it out together quite perfectly.

Usually the get-together we used to organize are always involving bbq but since this week was kinda hectic, we decided to just order some food and play some games. Among the games were pictionary, passing parcel (lol) and murderer. The Pictionary went on till so many rounds cos everyone get so addicted to it.

Here are some pictures of last nite:

while waiting for the others at 1st meeting point
affa, deera, me n amy

me, elle, rizal n amy

taken by shane, just before games

kamal, d-lip, kani, ashvin and kurt

dol n me

rizal, me, otak2 dol, zax, faiz

ice breaking session

faiz doing his punishment : saying i love u to kurt

kurt seducing ashvin

mus after eating a cili padi

elle, shane, kani, dol n begedil acting like a boyband

me putting colgate on kani's head and face

amy putting bra onto darshini's head

shane with red lipstick all over his face

me and amy while playing pictionary

group pic with some has already left and some went to toilet

kani being molested by sharel

affa, deera, laiqam, darshini, elle, bra-headed kani, amy n me

zombie kg pisang. begedil and deera

Basically, last nite was very fun with so much laughter and we did indeed "mengeratkan silaturrahim" ,with some new friendships are developed.

Till then, see u again soon.

When loneliness strikes

i just miss u so fucking much. it does hurt me a lot, in case u dont know that. luckily ur baju is here so that i can sleep with the smell of ur scents and it makes me feel comfortable, as if u are here with me. well i try so much to deny this feeling of missing u but fuck, i just cant. this is the problem of getting used to always having u around. haihhhh. just get ur ass over here will u?

The Appetiser

I seriously have no idea on where to start. This is my first time blogging (well, except for the stupid friendster blog). Please dont expect anything exciting cos it's just all about my life.

Currently, i'm on a long term goal of losing weight and i just want to live healthily. Hopefully this blog can help me to stay on track. So far it's been roughly 1 month and a half since i started this plan and successfully lost 6.5 kg. For those who think this is some kind of a joke, believe me this time around i'm totally determined to do this. There will be no turning back. I'll show u guys that i can do this. Just dont be jealous if someday i look like jessica biel haha (ya right!). For those who give me so much supports, thank you so much guys.

Till then, see u again soon.