Busy bee.

Aku mok klaka swak jak lah ehh. Kedong ku d kuching tok koh.

Yobihhh busyyy ku ehhh. Bok jak abis molah cookies. Dah 3 igek cookies dipolah ku. Kepak nyawa ku tok koh. Blom gk cake. Gila rasa nyawa ku tok.

Mak aku tok la over. Demand sungguh. Ada 9 igek cake tgh waiting list ok. Ilek2 jak nya menerima order dari orang. Sik nya tauk tukang polah tok mcm nak pengsan jer. Tpaksa ku bertungkus lumus 3 4 ari tok.

Dah la exam 6 aribulan. Aduh ehhh. Lom abis gk ku blaja. 2 ari jak ku ke pustaka ari ya. Sik juak abis2 blaja ku. Ya juak gago berpolah kueh. Paraiii aku mak. Tok salah satu cookies dipolah ku taun tok. Duak igek gik ya malas ku ngambar.

butter cookies jak sebenarnya. suka ku mok engkah royal icing atas nya.

Anyway, since dah dekat mok raya tok, aku mok mintak mahap ngan suma orang. HARAF MAAP yer kawan2. Haha. Sempat juak aku tek. Maka tgh mintak maap.

Kepada adikku di melbourne nun, aku tauk ko maca blog aku juak nak nak? Aku mintak maap ngan kawu sempena raya tok. Rindu ku ngan kawu koh. Ko tauk gamba raya kita taun ya kat tempat apek ya diengkah nya lam iklan lam borneo post. Khelas tau apek tu. Harus ku mintak royalty ngan nya. Haha. Eh lom abis ku becerita. Mula2 mak jak yang nangga benda ya. Ko tauk apa padah Baby? "Mak, pahal gamba kita ya mak. K berik ngan abang kat melbourne ka?" Kenak ko sik rasa mcm mok nukuk palak nya. Khelas borneo post sampei ke melbourne.

To farah: Aku ada juak kawan nama DAN. Nama penoh nya HAMDAN. Amek kau.

Till then, see u again soon.

At last!

Finally i can go back for raya! this is the moment ive anticipated since the start of ramadhan. Im off to kl in 2 hours time and will be back to kch on sunday. Anyway Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone.

Till then, see u again soon

Eish eish eish cobaan..

Today so much dugaan happened to me. After chibi woke me up, i felt so determined to do my assignment. I went straight to the laptop and start reading the rest of the assignment as i am suppose to conclude it. It took me nearly 2 hours to figure out that actually some of the work done by others are totally wrong so i cant conclude the assignment! I shouldve check the thing yesterday but i waited and this is what i get!

The thing is they blindly followed the instruction given without noticing that there are several errors in it. If u have read and understand what is required, you should know how to do it correctly and just use the instruction as a guideline only, not follow it blindly get it? Yet u said u want a perfect job. Wtf? Is that what u call perfect? U need to think out of the box!

After getting stuck in doing the assignment, i decided to check the mmls and see which chapters are coming out for the quiz tomorrow (the main reason i stayed for another one week). The thing is only then i realized that this is not week 12. It is week 13. Meaning that the quiz was held last week! I got zero after wasting my time waiting for the quiz. Another wtf! I am so fucking mad at myself. Luckily the lecturer is willing to let me do the quiz tomorrow but i am still mad cos i am suppose to be back in kch last week. Fuck fuck fuck.

Then i decided to go out for berbuka. Guess what? I left my key inside my room. I couldnt find the spare key and no one was at home. I was stuck inside the house as all the grill are locked. Nice one. What i did was kick the room door open causing it to be broken near the knob. I still cant believe that i managed to open the door after only a few kicks. Amazing! Another wtf moment for me today is when chibi called saying that she has the spare key for my room that i gave her but i forgot about it! WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!

Today teaches some lessons for me. Dont be such a stupid bitch. Lain kali coba ingat betol2 mena sik? Tok tek sikkkk. Leka gago kedirik ajak. Bongok eh.

Till then, see u again soon.

She's leaving on a jetplane

She just left. Few hours ago. Hopefully everything will be alright for her. She can now learn to be independent! hahahaha. ayat sapa ka itu? cuba teka.

Today for berbuka we ate at mcd. Me, chibi and amy and the rest of the guys except for faiz and otak2. Everything was on chibi. Thanks babe. Murah rejeki aku bulan puasa ni tau. Banyak jer org belanja. Alhamdulillah.

I dont have any plan to send her off at the airport. Everything was planned at the very last minute. Luckily otak2's car was available. At first i asked vic to accompany me but since his friend is coming over here and since dol said that it's ok for him to accompany me, i went to the airport with him and chibi (he drove of course). We left at 8.15pm right after berbuka. Thanks guys for accompanying me.

I thought it was gonna be hard for me to say goodbye to her but miraculously i didnt even cry. Maybe it was because of bank rakyat bak kata juan. I kept on thinking of what she told me. I dont know why that "statistic" person keep on telling lies to everyone. Hey Mrs Statistic dont u know that people will eventually know u are making up stories ok! Kelak bok ko tauk malu sik tauk cney mok napok muka nak nak? Kali nang suka publisiti murahan kali nak. Sampei bapak ku pun diajak begosip hal mrs statistic. Lawak eh kamek. Apa jak tek kah. Tebik posa ku mun dah time posa. nasib gk time sahor bah.

Sigek gik kali aku layap nangga muka bank rakyat kali juan oooo. Hahahaha. After saying goodbyes we left and sent juan to cyber. I insisted that he followed me back to malacca but he said no. Eh kenja kawu ya.

One more thing that makes me wonder. Why on earth the are people who keep on acting that they're so good that the rest of people in this world are useless. Keep on talking this and that yet never realize that they are actually making fun of themselves. Ridiculous. Im not saying that im that good but please lah. Wake up! Do as what u said.

Eh sigek gik. Best juak klaka bahasa tanah kelahiran ku yer. Puas ku meluahkan perasaan walaupun ada org ya netak aku klaka bahasa aku pun nak. Kali ko jeles nak sekda bahasa lain k klaka bah. Iboh loba gilak eh. Sik mak ku muji kawu gia koh.

Till then, see u again soon.

Im cluesless of how i feel

Last Saturday i went to kl. The main point : to see farah before she leaves for London. I actuually planned for a daytrip but sayang insisted that i sleep over at his house. So i did.

On Saturday i bought a 9.45am ticket but managed to use the 8.45 bus instead. Sayang fetched me at Pudu (god i hate this place so much). Later, accompanied him shopping for his baju kerja. We went to Sungei Wang. He bought 2 shirts and a pants. I sempat bought a grey long sleeved baju and a pair of flip flop. Later i bought some stuff for baking raya cookies (semangat tau!).

We reached his house around 5pm. Then i tidur till 6.30 pm. Mesti mak mentua aku menyirap jer. His mom cooked one of my favourite dish, Laksa Penang. Fuhhh. Layan sialll. The best Laksa ever. haha. suka la mak mentua aku kalo dgr. I adore her cos she cook everything on her own. Even kueh (bukan kueh raya nong). The laksa mee pon she made it herself. I ate the laksa for bbuka and sahur too. Penat je die masak nasik and lauk.

On sunday i woke up at 11am. Memang menyumpah org tua tu. haha. Watched tv and later went out to KLCC. Sayang bought another pants. Then buka puasa with hana, farah and juan at chili's. Fuhh memang kenyang stock tak leh bernafas. The meal was on farah. Thanx darling. Klak ku chia kawu topspot gik. Tunggu kawu balit la so that means next year. Haha.

Then we went to nose. I fell in love with this one shoes. Nang ku paksa ku gerek ku meli. But he said no unless i buy other shoes cos he said the shoes is ugly. I cant make up my mind and we went to Vincci hoping to find some other nice shoes. But the shoes were all crap. So melepas laa cos it was almost 9 and we needed to rush to Pudu. Then said goodbye to farah. My goodness. It was so fcking sad. i cried.

At Pudu i loan some money from sayang cos i used my money to top up my fon. I havent withdraw my money so pinjam from him. Later he called and told me i dont have to pay back and use the money to buy shoes instead. Thanx sayang. You're the best.

To Farah : Goodbye to you. I wish u the very best of luck. I will miss u so fcking much. Waaaa. Tinggal la aku juan n gegerl. Bait2 ko d sinun eh. Iboh lupak carik laki ala2 aucher k aku haha. Hope to see u again soon. Sorry sekpat anta kawu ke apot. mun ada keta mok ku pegi tp apakan daya aku ini pejalan kaki plg berjaya. Mun ku ke apot jalan kaki cepat gilak ku kurus klak. Haha. Anyway, have a safe journey. I will always pray for u.

That's why im clueless of how i feel about last weekend. Happiness? Sadness? urghh entahla. The mix of both kali tp ney satu lebeh banyak? yahhh. sekpat ku jawab.

some pics i managed to snap:



Till then, see u again soon especially to farah amami marzuki yg ku sayang gila babi.

God please fast forward the time!

Currently im listening to raya songs. omg. i miss kuching so much. raya la cepat. pleaseeee..ive started packing a bit cos im really in the mood for raya.

I wanna go back so bad. im tired of bebuka alone almost everyday. i wanna be with my fam. how i wish i can go back now but the stupid quiz is next week, on friday! arghhhh.. i didnt get barred anyway. alhamdulillah.

Dear God, can u make time go faster, please?

Another reason

I just found another reason to lose weight. i want to be able to sit on mmu's old table-chair and at the same time using the table.

Exhaustion exhaustion exhaustion!

Right now i'm blogging from the lab, waiting for my next class to start. I'm totally exhausted. I have tonnes of things waiting to be done. I'm sure my panda eyes are getting worse. Last nite i was doing my assignment till 2.30 am and didnt sleep until after performing subuh prayer. I slept around 7am. Woke up at 9.30 am just now cos i cant miss my Corporate Accounting class anymore. These are my to do lists:

• Taxation 2 assignment- need to be completed before friday. currently half are done.
• Corporate Accounting assignment - before friday as well. still waiting for the others to send their part so that we can do the conclusion.
• Accounting Information system assignment - the group leader wants the assignment to be completed by this week. also still waiting for the others to submit their part.
• Study for Corporate Finance quiz - should be done by this weekend (but im going to kl. how aa?)
• Start doing revision for final - especially for tax and CA
  
• Packing for holiday - this is the best part. i just cant wait. 2 more weeks to go. please make times go faster please please please.

Aite need to go now. Class in 3 minutes time. Till then, see u again soon.

10 reasons i wanna lose weight

1. People call me names. Gemuk, hyppo, gajah and so on. I wanna prove to them that i can lose those extra weights and they can stop calling me those names ok. I dont mind really but as it keeps on recurring it does hurt me deep down. I have feelings in case u guys wanna know.
2. Most probably i will get married in 3-4 yrs time. I just dont want my wedding pics look hideous. So better start now hehe.
3. I dont want to end up with tonnes of disease due to my weight. I wanna be healthy.
4. Of course i wanna wear pretty clothes and look nice at the same time. I look yuck wearing any clothes now.
5. I wanna sit comfortably in the plane. No need for stewardess to langgar my hand if i sit at the aisle seat. Lol.
6. I feel exhausted and sick of being fat. It's tiring to move around. It makes me lazy.
7. I wanna look normal and not like monsters that scare shits outta ppl.
8. When performing solat jemaah, i have enuf space for tahiyat aher. No need for me to hempap person next to me or there is no such thing as cramped leg.
9. So that i dont look like a 0 standing next to a 1. if tak paham g mampos haha.
10. SO THAT I CAN WEAR A BIKINI. hahahahaha. jk! I cant think of any reason anymore but all i know is that i wanna be thin so bad!.

Choc and Peanut Butter Cake

Like i said this is a non bake cake. It is very easy to prepare. I came across with this recipe while i was surfing for frosting recipe. I tried this cos basically i have all the ingredients at home and was bored haha. This is the original recipe :

Ingredients:

• 2 cups sugar
• 1/2 cup margarine
• 1/4 cup evaporated milk plus 1/4 cup water
• 1/2 cup instant or quick cooking oats
• 1/2 cocoa powder (sifted)
  
• 1/2 cup peanut butter
• 1 teaspoon vanilla

Procedure:

1. Mix all ingredients in a medium saucepan.
2. Boil for one minute over 350 degrees F.
3. Drop spoon fulls of mixture on lined cookie sheets.
4. Refrigerate for about 2 hours.
5. Serve with milk.

For me, i changed a bit of the ingredients. i used only one and a quarter cups of sugar but it is still sweet for my liking. i used 1/4 cup of evaporated milk as well instead of water. i used 1 cup of cocoa powder instead of half. 3/4 cups of oats just to make it harder a bit. If u dont like peanut butter u can reduce the amount or changed it to choc spread instead.

Till then, enjoy ur cake!

Happiness =)

This weekend i spent time with sayang. He surprised me again! He drove all the way to malacca and he's having a fever. i am totally touched. He reached malacca around 10 pm on friday and tapao me some of his mom's homemade kueh. Ahhhh greatness.

So we did some shopping and bought a brand new wallet, a dress for my sis, a new eyeliner and some groceries. Last week i bought a new cardigan, a small so-called yellow carpet and a towel. hehe. For both days we broke fast at aladdin and sahur at tomyam.

He came with a good news. He finally got a job at celcom and will be starting on the 15th. Alhamdulillah. I am relieved. I am very happy for him and for myself as well. I got a new source of income hahahaha. Kejam tau mak ni. He promised me an ang pao for this coming raya. Jangan kasi 5 rgt jer plak sudey.

He left at 9pm today after bebuka and after some groceries shopping again. Lalalala. I wish we couldve spent more times haihhh.

Another good news for me. Brand new season of gossip girl and antm have started. Yeay! Ive been waiting for so long. Now i have something to look forward to. Aww i'm in heaven is it?

The first episode of gossip girl really makes me wanna orgasm cos serena and dan are back together muahahaha. Yeah baby that's what i wanna see. Thank goodness. Some spoiler for second episode haha:

Blair (Leighton Meester) is over the moon that she is dating royalty and has every intention of becoming a royal herself, but a scheming Chuck (Ed Westwick) has other plans for Blair and hew new love, Marcus (guest star Patrick Heusinger). Serena (Blake Lively) and Dan (Penn Badgley) agree to keep their recent hook-ups a secret from their friends and family until they figure out what all this means for their relationship. Meanwhile, Nate (Chace Crawford) learns the downside to having an affair with a hot older woman, Catherine (guest star Madchen Amick), who also happens to be married.

As for antm, this cycle really made a headline. There's a transsexual competing in this cycle. Her name is Isis. I pity her so much cos almost every girls bitches about him. Kurang ajar k. I would say so far my fav are marjorie (her style resembles agyness), sheena (she looks like kimora and her body is smoking hot!), and ellina (her eyes are stunning in the pics but she's a lesbo lol). Here's the vid :



Just now i tried a new recipe which is a non bake cake. It is basically a choc and peanut butter cake. I'm still waiting for it to set in the fridge but mcm menjadi jer hehehehe. I will post the recipe after this. I also cooked some bubur jagong with macaroni, sagu and cendol. Yea baby, yummy yum yum.

Here some pics of me for this week. Im vain i know hahaha.

Me without the makeup

Me trying on my new eyeshadow and eyeliner

In conjunction with antm cycle 11 hahaha

Till then, see u again soon.

Ramadhan

Another ramadhan.. I just cant believe how fast time flies. But this is the time ive been waiting for. I just love the feeling of ramadhan. It's very peaceful. It makes me look back to myself and makes me see what wrongs ive done. It is a holy month which makes u just wanna clean urself and repent for what u've done. The next best thing is that it is an indicator of raya is coming! haha.

This ramadhan i aim to fast for the whole month (period is an exception la kan). ive started to solat cos its been almost a yr since the last time i pray. Yea it's true i'm not a very good muslim but i'm trying to change. I wanna change my lifestyle. I want to live a more organized life. It's depressing to live like how i live currently. I can only sleep at 6am and then woke up in the evening. I feel like my life is a mess. I didnt attend most of my classes. I am totally lost.

I know i will get barred by the lecturer. Usually i will give a completely ridiculous excuse but this time i feel that ive lost my drama queen talent. haha. but seriously i cant think of any excuses. I guess i'm tired of lying. I dont have the courage to face the lecturer. Not even to send an email. urghhh. it's a total mess u see. this is what u get for not organising ur life well.

The 1st day i broke fast with sayang's family. it is sad for not having to break fast with ur own family. i in fact cried on the night before puasa. it's true that my mum insisted that i go back to kuching but it's tiring for me to travel far. plus it's puasa. so i decided not to go back. my mum called hundred thousand times (exaggerate la pulak kan.haha) to coax me to go back to kch. haha. ok it's evil i know. haha.

Talking about how fast time flies, in roughly 1 week time, farah will be flying to london for her degree. Honestly, it is heartbreaking for me. I cant call her anytime anymore. The only medium for communicating is messenger. wtf? haha. eh tak baik mencarut2 bulan baik ni tau.

Yesterday i weighed myself again. I've lost another 2 kg since the last time i weighed myself, meaning i've lost 9 kg in total. one more kg to my 1st goal. alhamdulillah.

Till then, see u again soon.